Wow…second trimester already!

Hey guys, today makes 15 weeks! I had an OB visit today and her heartbeat was spot-on at 160-170 bpm. My belly has been expanding, but not like it did with BG–even though I weigh less now than I did with BG, my tummy is soft/squishy instead of hard. I presume this is because I have loose skin and, moreover, because I don’t have my colon (which was impacted due to taking Zofran with BG).

I loved my body/my belly with BG, but between my squishiness, scars from surgery, and my ostomy bag, I don’t feel very cute. I think part of my lack of enthusiasm for my “bump” is also that it’s my 2nd pregnancy and I have A LOT more on my plate–with BG, Mr. MLACS was gone 50% of the time, we lived in an apartment (now we are homeowners) and I didn’t have a toddler, plus it was a hard-won pregnancy, so I reveled in my ‘pregnant-ness’ and had lots of time and money to buy cute maternity clothes and take bump photos. I can’t be the only one–has anyone else found that their first pregnancy was all pinterest-y, but subsequent pregnancies were less so? I don’t want baby sister to feel less important or celebrated, because she is my little miracle and just because I’m not into *myself* right now is no reflection on how much I’m into her. I hope little sister understands and doesn’t take it personally. Because once she’s here, I’ll give her everything I’ve got just like I did for BG. Oh, and henceforth little sister will be referred to as LS.

So maybe you are wondering…how is pregnancy different with an ostomy? Well, first off, my ostomy bag covers the right half of my belly. As my belly grows and changes, I’ve had more challenges…

1. I eat more–a lot more–so my stoma and ostomy bags are getting a “workout” from all the food I consume.

2. My stoma is changing size. It has increased 2-3mm in diameter (so currently 28-29mm) and is protruding more.

3. Because my belly isn’t flat anymore, my stoma is changing size, and I am eating more, I’m having more leaks. In fact, I’ve gone from changing my appliance once every 4 days to changing it almost every day. And when I have leaks it irritates my peristomal skin.

4. I’m going to try different bases/bags to see if I can prevent leaks, and also because my preferred base only goes up to 35mm and may become too small.

5. My bag is much harder to hide under clothes. I had an easy time concealing it, even under skin tight clothing, prior to pregnancy/my belly growing. But now I can see my bag through almost anything I wear, tight or not. I’m frustrated about that. And between wanting to prevent leaks and also wanting to be comfortable, wearing compression garments is basically out of the question at this point.

6. I need to buy some new maternity clothes that suit my new body, but because I’m not into myself right now and I’m busy, I just haven’t made the effort. I really need to. I really wish I had a good friend here who I felt comfortable asking to go shopping with me.

So to be honest, having an ostomy has made pregnancy less enjoyable for me in some ways, as much as I hate to admit that. But I’m grateful to be healthy and moreover I’m grateful that LS is healthy, and that’s what really matters. The rest is trivial.

XOXO,

MLACS

 

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15 thoughts on “Wow…second trimester already!

  1. The second pregnancy is so much harder than the first! You show much sooner, the nausea is worse (for me it was, anyway), and you’re chasing around a toddler so you can’t really rest, ever!

  2. I feel like I was more moody with the second pregnancy and more guilt. I was nauseated all the time and exhausted but couldn’t sleep the hours I did with my prior pregnancy because of needing to take care of a toddler. Also my hubby had to pick up the slack of the house stuff AND watching said toddler, which added stress to the house. Also once the third trimester hit I was a complete basket case lol.. pregnancy does not bring out the best in my personality 🤣
    But you have extra stuff going on with your body this time around so I could see how that would be an added struggle- and that’s all new so learning diff tricks. Has your ob given you any ideas and tips about the bag?

  3. Ditto, pregnancy does not bring out the best in me either. My anxiety is already noticeably worse, so I leveled with my OB today and got the contact info for a therapist certified in PPD/PPA. I also contacted my EFT practitioner to schedule. I hope to curb my PPA, but if I can’t, then at least I can say I tried. XO

  4. Awesome!! I’m so glad you’re in the second trimester already (seriously that went so quickly). And thank you for sharing about pregnancy with a ostomy. I am a nurse and I think this kind of stuff is just not talked about enough. I wish I had some suggestions for you but alas I have none. Good luck and I look forward to hearing more about everything!

  5. I’ve always felt that the first pregnancy/first baby etc is just… Idk how to describe it… Extra special isn’t the right thing to say. Idk… Anyway, yeah, the second etc pregnancies just aren’t the same glowing dreamy affair, even if the first was hard. Anyway, I’m awful with words but what I’m trying to say is, I understand. 🙂

  6. Your feelings about the ostomy and pregnancy make total sense. I wonder could you “hide” it in some way through clever use of accessories? Like a cute handbag /scarf / belt. I’m delighted to hear LS is healthy and great news that you are having a girl! Sisters are great x

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