So can I just start by saying that I’m pretty stoked right now, because I just gave myself my HCG trigger shot in my ass! All by myself! I wasn’t sure I could really hit the mark, but I have good muscle memory and I found the spot on my left cheek where Dr. Angel injected me no less than 50 times. And I just went for it. And it worked! And now it’s done. What a relief. **I watched several tutorials today in preparation**
So then, lets talk about OHSS.
Yesterday I had the hiccups like 5x, and I got nauseous once. I was starting to feel bloated in my abdomen and I’ve been really tired and going to bed about 2 hours earlier than usual. During the day I feel kind of “spacey” and can’t focus very well. I am forgetful too.
Then today I went to spin class this morning and I pushed it a little in the first 1/2 of class, but then I could feel my ovaries throbbing (particularly on my right side which has more follicles) and I pulled back and took it easy for the second half. Then afterwards I talked to my instructor, who is “motherly” (and I actually went to school with one of her daughters) because I just didn’t want her to think that I was “punking out” on her, because she is a really great instructor and she makes me want to work hard–it’s frustrating that I can’t push it. So I started out the conversation by saying I have ambiguous “health issues” and that I didn’t want her to think I was being lazy. She was SO nice about it. And then I did actually tell her “Well, it’s fertility treatments” and bless her heart, she replied with a
cliché story about how this other lady (a former instructor) was doing these treatments and she would have to get people to sub for her a lot, and none of it worked, and she had several miscarriages, and then after failed IVF when she had accepted that she would be childless…
BAM! She got preggers.
Well, of course she did. God Bless ‘Merica.
So anyways, anecdotes aside, I just felt like crap after I left class. I ended up laying down on the couch, sidelined from achy ovaries. And I was so tired (and my head hurt) that I actually took a nap. And I’m still having the hiccups and acid reflux–I really never have indigestion but I know it’s the Estrogen wreaking havoc on my digestive tract. My poor gallbladder is probably working double time. I took a shot of apple cider vinegar because it’s supposed to support your liver. And of course I’m still taking my supplements–and I’m convinced those Thorne prenatal vitamins have helped my digestive tract. I have also felt sort of light-headed, and like I said before, “spacey”.
So, I’m trying to figure out if there’s anything I can do to make things easier on myself (to be more comfortable)? What if this gets worse and I do end up with mild or moderate OHSS?
And then, just fyi, I’m really nervous that I will ovulate too soon and that I will miss my opportunity. I shouldn’t really worry, because it’s only cd12 today and I never ovulate naturally before cd16 or later–I’ve been taking the CBD OPK’s twice per day and I haven’t had a ‘smiley face’. But I’m still afraid, like I have wondered if I should call and have a scan tomorrow just in case. Because as you all know, Mr. MLACS is not here, so I only have one shot at this.
And this is all I can really think about. We got our tax return back and Mr. MLACS asked me to look into plane tickets for a trip we’re planning in July, and I keep forgetting to do it. And my book club is reading “Gone Girl” and everybody is raving about it, but the thought of trying to focus my eyes to read just sounds like work (I mean, because I have to save all my eye strength for blogging). I need to open my mail but for some reason I just don’t. I just feel dumb. And anxious. And weird.
The time is just dragging. And so am I.